A Lot Has Changed Since Freshman Year

I can't believe I am half way through my four years of college.  It seems like just yesterday I was starting classes and getting used to commuting to school.  A lot has changed since I my freshman year.  I started living at school, I joined a sorority, I've made new friends, lost old friends, and I've gotten closer to my future career as a teacher.

     It really hit me that my life has completely changed when I was packing up my dorm room last night.  I have had so many memories in that room with my sisters and my friends.  I never thought I would be the type of person to leave home and live at school, but my friends convinced me I would love it!  They were right.  It was definitely the best decision I have ever made. 

     However, living at school has had some negativity.  Being away from home, and being so close to my friends at school, has put strains on multiple relationships.  I don't see my home friends as often as I used to, so I'm constantly getting texts saying how I've been ignoring them, or we barely know each other anymore.  I used to spend every free minute with my parents, grandparents, and cousins, but now, I only see them when I'm home on the weekends, or at a family party.  I think the worst of all though, is the relationship changes I have been experiencing with my friends at school.  They say sometimes seeing people too much can be a bad thing.  Some of the people I considered my best friends have decided they needed their space, and that we are together too often.  What they don't realize is we live down the hall from each other.  It's inevitable.  We ate most of out meals together, studied together, and hung out when we weren't busy.  Normal right? I thought so.  It's what best friends do.  Well, at this point, I'd say it's safe to say, we aren't best friends... honestly, I don't even know if we are friends anymore.  When I see them in the hall, or around campus, they act like they don't even know me.  This absolutely breaks my heart, because I would do anything for them. If you asked me a few weeks ago, these were those college friends everyone told me I would meet in college and be friends with for the rest of my life! I'm sick of one-sided friendships.  Those relationships where I always start the conversations, I send the first text, and all of the responses are yupp, ok, yea, cool.  This is not a friendship... at all.  There was a point where I was at my lowest of lows, and I didn't even have them to turn to.  It really shows who has my back, and who could care less.

     I can’t wait for summer to start so these things change.  I can be with my family again.  I will be closer to my home friends, and farther from my school friends.  I am dying for a break from schoolwork, and focusing more on me.  I can't wait for Disney with my family, and Miami with my sisters.  I just need to get through finals now... 1 Monday... and 6 Tuesday. Oh boy!

Lessons Learned:

~It's sad when the people you know become the people you knew, but sometimes its for the better.

~"When people hurt you over and over, think of them like sand paper. They may scratch you and hurt you a bit but in the end, you end up polished and they end up useless."

~"There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will.  So don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason they didn't make it to your future."