I have come to the conclusion that I try and please too many people. I forget about what I truly want and sacrifice my own happiness for others. Yes, it is important to think of others, but I need to put myself first, something I NEVER do. I put everyone else before me, family and friends. I am too busy pleasing other people that I have ended up unhappy with my life and where it is going. I decided this weekend that I was done with being second. I am first in my mind and it needs to stay that way. Since no one puts me first, why should I put them first. Yes, family is different, but I need to be my first priority! Sometimes, I worry too much what others think of me. A friend told me today that I need to be HAPPY with MYSELF, and LOVE MYSELF, something I have always found difficult. Again, it's ok to take other's opinions into account, but in the end, I must do what is BEST for me and what will make me HAPPY! A quote from one of my favorite songs says "Life's too short, to hate yourself." I am going to start living by this because it is 100% true! If I spend my life worrying about what other people think of me, I will NEVER be happy!
Lessons Learned: I am the most important person in my life.
I AM good enough!
"It took me a long time not to judge myself through someone else's eyes. ~Sally Field"
I can't believe how busy I've been! These past few weeks have been FYLING by! Before you know it, it's going to be finals week! Even though I'm super busy, I have been taking time to re-evaluate my life. Times have been hard and I've made some unhealthy friendships. These past few weeks, I have spent some time getting closer to new friends, and distancing myself from some "unhealthy" friendships. I have come to the realization that if people can not accept me for the way I am, then I don't want to be their friend. Easier said than done. I have invested so much in my friendships, it hurts to see them fall apart and disappear. I shouldn't want to be friends with these people, but I'm having a hard time distancing myself from them. It hurts because these are the people I thought would stick by me forever. Guess I was wrong. Through all of this trouble, I have definitely found my true friends, the friends who will be there for me regardless. I don't know what I'd do without them!
Lesson Learned: When the sky gets cloudy, only the bright stars shine through
